It's not all me. It's not all my fault. I may remind you, but I won't take it all on.

So this weekend was the MIAC Conference track meet at St. John's and the weekend before finals. I've been in denial for SUCH a long time that now when I'm starting to snap back to life, I fear I'm too late to catch up. I just want to sit here and let life pass me by. I want to quit. Throw in the towel and raise my white flag and say "college has ruined me." Hope is quite scarce this time of year. People always come up to me (and I'm sure other people get this a lot to) and say "oh I have ___ and ____ and ___ and ___ and ___and ___ to do and..." blah blah blah blah I don't want to be insensitive, but finals time is stressful for everybody. For me, when people share school stresses like that, it does not make me feel any better that other people are just pinched for time as myself. I wish people realized the impact they have on others when they share their extensive list of things to accomplish. People are sensitive to things like that, and it affects people differently. Me, I just get super scared and quite depressed. One more thing while I'm on this rant... something that really really irritates me is when friends and aquaintences walk past me and say "Hi! How are you doing?" as if they have time to care. I'm not accusing people of not caring about me, but in all honesty, if you do not have time to sit and chat with me for 5 minutes, don't ask. Awknowledge my existance, smile if you are up to it, and continue on your way.


I'll be moving back home the night of Tuesday, May 22nd.