It's not all me. It's not all my fault. I may remind you, but I won't take it all on.

Ya know, I think this is the first year that I'm not excited for school to start. I need to be cheered up... I only have a month.

I planned on living in the International Center (sweet new building with AC, bigger room, and most of the exchange students) with my roommate of 2 years, and she is now going to France all year. I may either get some random person as my roommate or be rooming by myself... neither of which I am excited about. I need companionship, but I'm really not up for getting a new roommate. To live in this new building, it's like $300 extra per semester, and mom yelled at me for signing up to live there. Truth is, I kinda have to stay there 'cuz you have to apply to live there, and be a part of a committee. If I try to move buildings now, I will for sure get some random roommate in a shitty dorm. I had only planed to live in the International Center a semester because another friend is in Japan first semester, so I'll move to a different dorm with her second semester, but at least I'll have somebody. My other good friend is gonna be in Australia for the first semester. I'm pretty much alone first semester. I'm starting a whole new major, I'm scared. If this one doesn't work out, I'm pretty much fucked. I don't know where to go. I'll have to drop out of Gustavus. I really need to buckle down this year, and make this work and I'm worried that I'm gonna crash and burn. I'm usually an optimistic person, but for some reason, I'm failing to see the light.

Somebody please help me out